SUICIDE.......................…

if u kill yourself u will not be at peace. ur son will grow up thinking u hated him and that is the reason u left. if u r a fighter u can get through this too. ok so your man was a jerk and left there are other great men out there u just have to find them. we all get depressed this is normal. ya know your mind will do exactly what u tell it to do so tell it to buck up and get these thoughts out of your mind and it will work. think positive thoughts it will reflect in meetings and in everything u do. being negative is like sticking your hand in fire. u know it is going to lead to nothing good but u do it just because. so life goes on take the 3 year old to the park and help him play it will do u a world of good. get some fresh air. ask your family to go with u until u r strong enough to realize u can do this on your own. which u should be telling yourself. u r not alone lots of us wanted to give up but now we are old and the trip made us stronger. don't give up think about the beautiful baby. and a better life for both of u keep fighting and think better thoughts u will get through this.